Awwwww Deb, who are we if we can't commiserate with one another through the rough times. I know what you're feeling, too. When my brother died, I remember going back to work after 2 weeks off and that first day back, I couldn't speak to anyone without starting to cry. The more I tried to hold it back, the worse it got. So, I went home. I will tell you one thing that I learned from my brother's death. You can't hold back the tears. Because....they will have their day, one way or the other and holding back just delays it one more day.
It's been 3 years now and I still have bad days. When I go to the cemetary, I can't do it without crying. I know time will change that but it's normal to grieve for years. My problem was, I wasn't giving in to it and I should have. I felt like laying on the floor in a fetal position and wailing like a bloody fool and I never did. I certainly SHOULD have. It's very cleansing. I hope you'll feel better soon.
Malcolm darlin, I know it must be hard for you being an 'only' and being the main care giver for your Mom. It's a tough situation to be in but thank God you're there. Someday you may need a child to care for you and I suppose the best thing to keep in mind is, "How would I like to be treated in this situation". My thoughts are with you, too.
Take care both of you!!!!
Love,
Jackie...