No Reason At All

[melissasminis]

   I am here because life got me down. Down enough to ruin my whole being. I can't even wake up and start my day nor can I live with taking care of my child or my husband anymore. I am so unappreciated and unknown, I'm better off not being here, just a maid and servant. Is there a better life, or is this it? What a dissapointment.

[brandeentertainment]

Life is what yo make of it ... Seek Help from a professional or family member and do ever turn your back to your child. Once you have a kid you are obligated there is no easy way about it .. Your child needs you ... Leave your husband if it's that bad but do right by your kid ...

Life is what you make it don't let anyone else tell you otherwise..

[lucitabby]

Don't be down.  You are not a maid/servant, you are a homemaker - make your home life beautiful.  Embrace your child - get help if you need it.  If you can wake up in the morning, walk out of bed, see, hear and have indoor plumbing, you are better off than half the world's population.  Enjoy what you have - remove anything negative from your life - look forward to every day and only think positive thoughts.

[melissasminis]

Hi guys, Thanks for your responses. I was pretty down last night, sorry for my rant. I love my son and husband and will do anything for them, just sometimes feel unappreciated, I guess we all do at some point.

[gifts_of_elegance]

You are suffering from depression.   Get help, fast.  See your doctor or go to an emergency room.

[femmefan1946]

Just putting a name on your feelings is helpful. gifts gives good advice.

While professional help is the best idea, even just getting out of the house for a walk can be good.

Not a drive, the fresh air really does make a difference. And yes it can be difficult with a very small child, but it is good for him too.

There is also the possibility of a telephone call to Ontario's TeleHealth (1-866-797-0000)  (  http://www.health.gov.on.ca/en/public/programs/telehealth/ ) or your local Distress Centre, until you can speak with your family doctor.

Glad you are feeling better today. Hope that tomorrow is even better.

[femmefan1946]

I think I am turning into a dirty old lady, but I got a good laugh out of your item

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Makes me wonder what Ken's "safe word" is.

[melissasminis]

You're funny Femme. Thank you for the advice. I do need a good walk and some fresh air. Maybe my son would like to take a walk with me after school. My mother and sister suffer from depression, and are currently on anti-depressants. My grandmother on my mother's side also suffered from this. It's hard for me to get to a doctor as I live about 1.5 hour drive away from civilization, and I do not have a car or a license, which makes getting around near impossible. My husband works 6 days a week, so a bit hard to take me out anywhere, except the grocery store, so I get out twice a month for a drive. I guess I just need to take a deep breath, and get out of the house more often. Being couped up in the house drives me a little nuts lol.

[gifts_of_elegance]

No wonder you are feeling depressed.  I was in your shoes when my children were little.  I wasn't 1.5 hours from civilization but we moved to a small town of 4,000 from Toronto and I came very close to a complete nervous breakdown.  I didn't drive, my husband worked 6 days a week and we were 14 miles from the nearest city.  We walked into town at least twice a week with the kids, I spent a lot of time outside, but I was lonely and felt just like you.  I loved my children, they kept me busy but I needed my husband around.  All the pills in the world did not make a difference.  We finally moved, my husband came home for lunch every day, I learned to drive and my depression went away.

I have a niece in the same situation as you, she is on anti-depressants and is up to 400 lbs.  (She gained 80 lbs. this year alone.)  She cries instantly.